making such a meal out of getting all my shit together
such a massive deal out of nothing that will last for ever
try to keep reality from making me act stupidly
and selfishly, shortsightedly
all me me me
all see see see
cutting off my nose to spite the face that launched a thousand projects
all unfinished
none abandoned
space diminished
time berandomed
jack of all trades
masters none
cut off from each and everyone
yelling out in pain
but all i really want is harmony
drugs and booze the flame i use
to burn off excess energy
i'm running from the world
and lo!
it isn't running after me
except for bills i cannot pay
and gates they're closing off to me
making such a salad from this life i've wasted getting wasted
in denial all the while, laid out flat and turkey basted
wondering where the really clever women went, why i can't find them
deaf to all the songs of joy they're singing now that i'm behind them...
Banishing by Wayne Myers